Stay or Go?

Somewhere, tucked away in the recesses of my brain is a lovely blog post entitled, "Reciprocal Emotions."

In my head, it is a pretty fantastic little post about rejoicing with those who rejoice, weeping with those who weep, laughing with those who laugh and being absolutely ridiculous with the absurd.

But other things keep getting pressed to the front of my mind and cannot be gotten rid of until something is said:

I have a job offer. A job offer, two weeks ago, I said I would accept if it were offered to me.

I have another job offer. A job offer, 8 months ago, I said I would accept if I were offered it and it was paid — last week it went from unpaid to paid.

I stand between two wonderful opportunities, two amazing chances to grow and change and represent Christ. I know not which to choose.

Do I stay or do I go?

A few days ago, I told a friend I was sick of God choosing "stay." For 5 years, I have stayed. I have been offered opportunities in Alabama, in Europe, New York, Oregon. Each time, I choose Chicago. Each time, I choose what was right.

Is this like all the others? A chance to go so that God makes it clear that it is he and not fate which keeps me here, or is this the time that he has prepared me for, to take flight and go?

I know not what to do.